This graduation application is really stretching my patience to its limits. I might just give it up again and wait for another semester to pass by. I don’t want this to happen though. I have been stuck in a rut for more than 4 years now- having a routine that might turn me into a zombie one day. Yes, it has up’s and down’s but most of the time. it’s static. I am talking about my life by the way. I am out of the “mid-life crisis” because I know what I want and I accepted that it would definitely take time. However, the school where I am currently admitted in, is not working according to my own blueprint. This problem is the boulder to the path I need to trod on.
Tailoring never occurred to me when I was young. I was once young and naive, thinking if I become someone who makes things, I should be making it with my own designs. In short, I also wanted to become a fashion designer. However, due to financial constraints and the way I was brought up, I did not pursue on it. Until recently, my eyes have been opened to reality. The more I get older, the bigger my waistline is becoming. The harder for me to make fashion choices. Even the brands that carry “big” sizes do not fit me. So I thought, why not make my own. It’s a lot of work, and will require patience, but I have been tested before. Making it in three days is not as long as waiting for the process to move on for months.
Another thing that made me consider of taking that course up is that my family lacks tailored clothing. My dad and my older brother both work as college instructors and it is good if they look smart in what they wear. Power-dressing is very important in their industry as one should always exude authority and confidence. It’s like the saying “Fake it ’till you make it!”. I am not saying their bluffing but a good pair of tailored trousers and dress shirt won’t hurt.
Hopefully, before this week ends, I have already settled what I need to settle and finish what has begun. I plan on starting a new journey by June of this year. I still have no idea how I will manage my time. I cannot afford not working but I feel really passionate on learning the basics and complexity of tailoring. I need to start everything right away before my vision, my eyesight, slowly degenerates.
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