Time to set my priorities straight.

I have been staying at home for almost 2 years now. The job I had last time was home-based. Because of that, I feel like I am really living under a rock this whole time. Despite being on the internet for so long everyday, I only limit myself on certain topics and news that interests me. So I end up not really having a wide horizons. I also become more complacent with what I should become.

I already sent applications to one of the biggest company in the Philippines for an operations assistant position and so far, they haven’t turned be down nor accepted me so I am in a kind of a limbo. I don’t like it.

My faith to the God I believe in has also dwindled because of the many disappointments I brought to myself. I know it is my fault for not surrendering and holding on to Him when I needed it most. I feel empty inside really. I laugh when the situation asks for it. But most of the time, I tear up to the pettiest reason there is. I cannot call it depression, perhaps, emotional and sensitive?

Right now, I want to start up to pick up myself and set my priorities straight. I should have one goal and that is to make sure to come back to Him. I also want to do things that will glorify Him. Guarding my heart is the best for me for now. I have to start logically as well. Hopefully, with the help of God’s grace, I will be able to change into a better person. I know it will take a long time and I might stumble in the future again but I will ask for help from Him so I can stand up right away.

I will have to make a decision by next week, after my trip with my mom to the province.  Should I study TESOL? Go back to the original plan of taking a Tailoring course or take a different path and become a hotel attendant. I hope the Lord will reveal His plans to me soon. I should base my decisions on what the Bible says.

P.S.

I should go back to school for my diploma and Transcript of Records. I think I should start from there.

P.P.S.

I don’t know if I should be too serious with myself or still be the funny person that everyone knows I am.

(A Post in Filipino)

Ito ang mga pangyayari na nakaapekto sa akin sa nakaraang taon, ito ay nilista ko ayon sa pagkakaalala ko:

1. Bumalik para tapusin ang college degree.
2. Napromote si mama.
3. Naging unemployed ng 6 na buwan. (Kung tutuusin, masaya naman.)
4. Kinasal na ang aking mahal na kababata.
5. Nag-apply ako ng graduation.
6. Nagkaroon uli ng trabaho. (Home-based. Sa una, masaya, pero habang tumatagal, nakakaburyo din.)
7. Pagpunta ng aking pinakamamahal na kapatid papuntang bansang Hapon para mag-aral ng Nihonggo.
8. Nag-away, nagbati, nag-away, nagbati kami ng isa ko pang kuya.
9. Mga paglabas-labas namin ng aking girlfriday.
10. Mag-organize ng mga simple events sa simbahan.

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko ineexpect na ganyan kadami ang maililista ko. Hindi naman ganoon makulay ang 2013 ko. Dahil hindi naman ako nakakalabas-labas. Wala kasing pera. Kaya promise ko this 2014, I will explore places of interests na malapit lang sa lugar ko. Magta-try try din ako ng mga restaurants para naman madami akong alam sa mga pwedeng kainan. Tutal naman, napapagastos na din ako sa mga pagfa-fastfood ko, itodo ko na.